I don't particularly know how outspoken I've been on the topic, but I've always wanted to tell stories in one form or another. I'd very much like to be a comics artist, or a story planner for a videogame, or something along those lines: teaching through stories.
As an artist, I've always been attracted to unconventional mediums. They're super cool, and moreover, a little bit of talent in something that isn't popular means that you stand out. I think a large part of the reason I started doing artisan crafty things is because I was attracted to things that had never been done before. Mainly so that I wouldn't have to 'compete' for attention. While a productive pursuit, it was essentially me running away from what was 'hard': continuing to illustrate and draw, and in so doing putting my art up to 'compete' with all of the other amazing 2-D artists out there, including many of my friends. I want to stand out; so my logic went that art forms that stand out will help me do that.
But now I'm trying to focus in on what I really want to do, which-- in any of its forms but pure writing-- requires illustration, and I find that I simply don't know how to draw too many things. I'm not a 'good' enough illustrator, my illustration patience is not as practiced as my artisan crafty patience, I can't draw backgrounds that well, and I have no real body of illustrative work that counts toward a portfolio.
I find that I am a jack of all trades, and master of none.
And while that's fun, and occasionally useful, it's no way to set oneself up for a career (unless people actually hire such hobgoblins of talent, but that doesn't seem like reliable work).
For these reasons, I am officially deciding that my focus will no longer be artisan crafts. And I'm writing it down so that I'll stick to it.
That doesn't mean I'm abandoning all crafts immediately and forever; I still want to learn about glassworking, I do have commissions to finish up on, and I have a couple of projects I still want to do. It just means that I'll probably be slower on the crafty side of art as I try to re-learn the practice of drawing, and learn painting, I suppose.
My kiriban will still be in effect, but I'm deleting it from the bottom of my journal.
Also today was a bad day sorta and I'm not feeling too hot. It doesn't help that I'm questioning my abilities to draw or get a job or it feels like anything that doesn't directly involve school and due dates. Which there are too many of anyway. Bluuuuh.To sum that up (or TL;DR):
Less artisan crafts coming from me, and more drawing and comics. Not that I post that often anyway.
Commissions are closed.
Details on commissions are currently undergoing revisions.
-- Life-Size Joltik //Needlefelt
Trades are closed.
-- Character (to be determined) //Glass
Trades I'm Waiting On:
-- Noobalee //needlefelt
-- Art Trade: Red, Long, Dragonfly wings //design
-- Mew Tutorial (all parts) //digital
-- Dallas Contest Prize //needlefelt
Any questions? Ask! In a comment, a note-- I don't care. Answering questions is what I'm good at.